I am now at what I know to be the final fork in my path.
Being brought up with no faith/religion, being left to choose my path has made it easy.
What some people call a ‘green spirituality’.
But it is not only the spiritual side of things. It’s a feeling deep inside me that connects with the ancestors of this land I live in. a land that existed here before the Romans brought their world to this land. A land of tribes and round houses, a respect for nature, living alongside and with nature.
Now here is that fork in the road, a road I have been living for some while to something much more profound and significant.
The dividing of the path came recently when I realised that things I truly believed were at odds with what I thought I was.
I had placed a label upon myself and tried to live with that label and now I know the label has been holding me back from my path.
The divination I have done has been directing me true but still I tried to label myself…what a dreadful thing it is to label oneself and try to mould an unwilling soul into that shape.
My path workings have also been true to my soul and shown me things that were once real.
So what were I things I was feeling so very much at odds with?
The path I was following had rules and practices from a place that said there were no rules and practices.
It felt that there was more focus on the practices than actual spirituality.
This did not feel to me an ancient path but something taken from more recent sources, sources away from this ancient land.
I felt that casting circles and creating a sacred space was wrong, wrong for me, it did not sit well with what I believed and my ‘practices’.
My sacred space is outside in nature, surrounded by living things, with my feet on the earth, this is where I connect.
What I believe is not just inside of me, I feel a connection with the land…I look up at the moon and stars feel the wind and rain, smell the earth and feel at home and part of it, not separate from it.
This gives me such joy
Now I can move onwards and embrace what I am and what I believe without the old label I placed upon myself