~fate?~

belated solstice blessing to you all

here we had a day and night of grey sky and rain so my planned small and peaceful sit by my little fire did not take place.

we have had rain, high winds, some sunshine~really the most bizarre weather for what should be flaming june.

although to be fair when the clouds do clear it is very hot.

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its been a funny week here in the forest~more so because we should not really be here at all.

we have had long term plans to be in yorkshire this week~firstly visiting my friend lina (for the very first time!) who lives in east yorkshire and then crossing to west yorkshire for our friends 50th birthday party tonight.

well last week swampy went into hospital to have facet joint injections into his spine in an attempt to give him some pain relief~however he has been in more pain than ever and could not manage the long drive up or sleeping in the camper

(i really hope it is just taking its time in working as the poor thing is very grumpy with the pain too)

well i was awake from about 3am this morning as my fibro was giving me painful 'restless' legs so i put my little headphones on to listen to the radio~i must have nodded off for i suddenly woke up to hear a reporter talking about todmorden and hebden bridge being flooded...we were to have been camping in hebden bridge from last wednesday and the party is in todmorden tonight.

needless to say i had to get up and put the news on.

i keep thinking what would have happened if we were camped up as mismi lives in his cage out in our awning when camping.

i haven't yet heard from our friends yet but hoping they are safe.

i have been so upset about not going up to see all my friends, to the point i had to stop thinking about it for fear of bursting into tears but now i think in a roundabout way something was forcing us to stay home.

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i became really upset (yes about something else...its been one of those weeks!) in the week as our new neighbours pulled up every single plant in their front and back garden...

everything.

they had a large machine come in to rip up plants and bushes by the stumps.

for most of the day, on and off the machine was going so loud we could not have our doors or windows open and when we went to hang out washing we could not hear each other talk.

we were both also worried that the six foot wood panel fence that luckily shields us from them was going to fall down as the machine was so close.

i think it would have been neighbourly to maybe pop a note in our door to say there was going to be so much noise for much of the day.

the beautiful flower bed that ran down the side of the house and along the front is now just bare earth, and from what we have seen through their open back gate on our way out, so is the back...

just churned up earth.

the worse thing is a few days earlier i heard baby birds in one of their bushes~i feel heartbroken.

everyone here in our little cul-de-sac is just devastated.

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i had to go back to the doctors as well

this flipping virus is still with me

i think the two courses of antibiotics helped a little but the cough is still here as bad a s ever so now i have two nasal sprays~one to use three times daily for a week, one to use twice daily for i don't know how long and next week i have to go and have a chest x ray

(here in England right now there is an advertising campaign about long term persistent coughing and lung cancer)

i have to admit i have not been feeling my best this week (another sign we should not have gone away?)...well i never feel good, but i feel 'okay' in my own way so to feel bad i know i must be bad...does that make sense?!

i have three weeks for it to clear if not my doctor wants me to go back.

i have been so very tired and going to bed between 7-8pm either with my book or to listen to the radio.

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i am trying to do very little this weekend as i am going to london with my sister next week~we have tickets for the centre court at wimbledon on tuesday~so i really need to save my 'spoons'...if we had gone to yorkshire we were coming home on sunday ready for me to go off.

i do feel bad about about going off and leaving swampy as he is really struggling~he doesn't really let on much about it but i can always tell how he is and i try to do more around the house so he does not do it himself.

the trouble is we live in a catch-22 situation~we both have problems to deal with and each try to do more so the other does not have to!

i keep reassuring myself i will be only gone for one whole day and we have food etc in plus my mum is only five minutes away if need be.

anyway i best get myself sorted as we are going to my mums for the afternoon

have a good day all and if any of your reading this are in the flooded areas be safe

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~again? so soon?~

another blog post so soon after the last one?!

i am having an quiet day...

...well i was having an enforced quiet day as i was supposed to be saving my spoons to go and see Duran Duran (who remember's them first time around~i feel old!) with my sister tomorrow, but it has been cancelled due to simon le bon's laryngitis.

but all is not lost, i am now conserving my spoons for next week when we go to see Take That yet again!

of course spoons dont really work that way~i never know when i wake up quite how many i will have to last the day but hey-ho!

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i have a confession to make...

i have been lured back to 'face ache'~oh i know, i know (i have a contrite look on my face honest)

but after seeing my lovely friends last week i realised how much i miss them, even across the t'internet so i registered again. but this time not accepting any old random person into my friend list~they are all people i know and have interacted with in person (except for a very , very few special folk)

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its a wet, chilly and very grey day here in this ancient forest and i am sitting here just thinking...i am having one of those days where i dont know what to do with myself.

earlier i took a nasturtium out of my strawberry basket as it was overcrowding the strawberries and blocking out the light~so its nowin a pot and sitting behind some plants that have stopped flowering to add some extra color.

it seems we have had days of grey skies and i am longing for the sun.

in the last year i seem to have turned from a sun-hater (actually hater is a bit harsh but having the old Irish paleness i burn easily) into a sun lover.

only because the heat helps my fibromyalgia~sitting quietly in the garden the heat soaks into the painful joints and muscles like an all over hot water bottle.

a lot of people with certain chronic conditions say that all kinds of weather factors affect them~you will find a good write up about that here.

i have to say i have been half hartedly monitoring my m.e and fibro and weather certainly does change things.

well i think i will get my crochet out, i am still working on my granny shawl from the lovely alpaca cotton, i took it out yesterday but my fingers felt like sausages so i didnt get very far!

have a good day wherever you are

~a few quiet days~

its been a quiet few days here in the forest~for me only a few walks with swampy and flynt.
my m.e/fibro has been so that i have had to take things much slower and preserve my 'spoons'

these lovely spoons are from steve tomlin who carves the most wonderful, simple items~look at his butter knife, eating bowl and side plate.

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writing this my hands, wrist and elbows are hurting so this will be a short post.

i hope tomorrow to get out with my camera~suddenly the leaves are all changing and the mass of different colours and shades are amazing. i cannot remember the last time it all looked so breathtaking

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do you know how many days i have tried to get this post out?

today is day three

yesterday i was good for nothing and ended up in bed by 1pm~the most comfortable place for my aches and pains and perfect if i fell asleep~which i did for a short time.

i was up and about by 8am but as the hours ticked by i felt worse with every tick~even a warming drink of grated ginger and honey couldn't do its work.

we have a small tv/dvd combination in the bedroom for days when i am this bad so i took some painkillers, made myself comfortable and watched quite a few episodes of the first series of Larkrise to Candleford

i thoroughly enjoyed myself, even more when, after a nap~meaning a bit of re-winding of the dvd~my headache and neck ache had gone, and so i watched a few more episodes.

i love anything which takes me back in time~Cranford is another wonderful series i love.

...well my hands are hurting so i will post this today...