well here i am again
it is another grey cold day here in the new forest and i have just tested my blood~something i have to do twice daily since starting my morning insulin shots~and it has rocketed since this morning.
all due to a few small slices of malt loaf...*sigh*
although this daily testing and injecting is so very tedious its a good way of seeing what foods my body reacts to.
however at the same time it gets me down, really down sometimes, to the point i think, sod it i am going to stop testing and getting stressed and do what i want. then i calm down and remain down but continue to test.
i have to make an appointment with my diabetic nurse at our village surgery so have decided to discuss my low moods.
i don't know how many of you out there are diabetic and how you manage~do you get down?
i find it so frustrating that i cannot enjoy eating as i constantly worry about what its doing to my sugar levels.
both swampy and i have experienced a loss in our families since yule.
in december i lost my great auntie joy who lived up in norfolk.
i had been lucky enough to find her and my great uncle fred~my gramps hawkins last living sibling~ through my ancestry work and so had a few lovely years emailing, writing and exchanging photos.
last week we attended the funeral of swampys nephew scott who passed very suddenly a few weeks ago and today we are honouring him for it would have been his 21st birthday.
so this last few weeks have been full of sadness and questions but also celebration for the way scott overcome health problems and was on the verge of completing his degree~but we were all overjoyed to hear at his wake that he is being awarded his BA in november