rise and root

***

~*~*~*~
by the gorgeous bohemian wild roses~thank you me dear xoxoxo


The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

***
"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

*sigh*


well here i am again

it is another grey cold day here in the new forest and i have just tested my blood~something i have to do twice daily since starting my morning insulin shots~and it has rocketed since this morning. 
all due to a few small slices of malt loaf...*sigh*
although this daily testing and injecting is so very tedious its a good way of seeing what foods my body reacts to. 
however at the same time it gets me down, really down sometimes, to the point i think, sod it i am going to stop testing and getting stressed and do what i want. then i calm down and remain down but continue to test.
i have to make an appointment with my diabetic nurse at our village surgery so have decided to discuss my low moods.

i don't know how many of you out there are diabetic and how you manage~do you get down?

i find it so frustrating that i cannot enjoy eating as i constantly worry about what its doing to my sugar levels.

ahh well.

***

both swampy and i have experienced a loss in our families since yule.

in december i lost my great auntie joy who lived up in norfolk.
i had been lucky enough to find her and my great uncle fred~my gramps hawkins last living sibling~ through my ancestry work and so had a few lovely years emailing, writing and exchanging photos.

last week we attended the funeral of swampys nephew scott who passed very suddenly a few weeks ago and today we are honouring him for it would have been his 21st birthday.

so this last few weeks have been full of sadness and questions but also celebration for the way scott overcome health problems and was on the verge of completing his degree~but we were all overjoyed to hear at his wake that he is being awarded his BA in november 



4 comments:

Jopan said...

I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time. I don't have diabetes, but I do suffer with irritable bowel which means some foods can cause me severe (No exaggeration- lying on the floor crying)pain and I have unrelated depression/anxiety/panic attacks. So I know how you feel.

My nephew is around 21 years old and I just can't imagine something like that happening. That's terribly young. It is dreadful when people so young die. :(

laoi gaul~williams said...

thank you Jopan~at present it is thought it was Sudden Adult Death but we might know more in a few weeks.

Caitlin said...

I'm so sorry things are hard Lee, I hope you're feeling the light coming as the wheel turns.

Thinking of you.

Caitlin xx

laoi gaul~williams said...

Thank you Caitlin...does this mean you are blogging again? i have missed your posts :) xoxo

All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.



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Johney Gaul~1915

Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France