Calvin and Hobbes
i find myself 'home alone' today as swampy is out logging and will be out all day, except for a brief break for food at midday~and i feel so adrift.
there are things i promised myself i would do while i was alone, but so far i have just been listening to music~although this is a treat as i am listening to 'my' music LOUD~without headphones!
i stress 'my' as swampy and i have very differing tastes in music and my 'rowdy' music is more along the lines indie/punk rather than swampys rock, which to me is a dreadful noise.
so actually its a joy to listen to my music in freedom and loud!
i am still struggling~really struggling with this free time i have~i really cant get my head around not feeling guilty for blogging and browsing the net with abandon~feel being lazy!
i find myself really looking forward to september when i can stock up on paper and pens and files and start my reading and note taking~now there is something i never thought i would say when was a grumpy, school hating 15 year old!
i was over at my mum's in the new forest yesterday~i think me and sam spent the entire time discussing our mini-cruise, even down to what we would do on our first few hours on board!
oh and of course we have our wimbledon trip coming up in just over a month so we had some planning to do~namely drinking pimm's and eating strawberries on 'henman hill' (although i much prefer the real name of aorangi park~Maori for ‘cloud in the sky') before our match begins.
we are off camping again at the end of the week, only an hour from us near yeovil~its the vw clubs agm~so swampy will be busy. i have nothing to do with the club at all, i just enjoy being out in pippin, out from the four walled living i hate so much. of course our friend sean will be there and he is collecting swampy's daughter lousie from birmingham on his way down to join us~so i will be in step-mom mode...sort of...
its an odd concept for me to have a young (to me 19 is young) person around who classes me as that~well to use her words when she camped with us last year and was speaking to a friend who sells enamel~ 'that mad woman in the blue van' (she wanted to buy me a piece of enamel and didnt know what to choose~i got a lovely old blue oval pie dish!)
anyway...i have never wanted children and to be honest actively avoid them~funnily enough i loved being a youth worker~so to now hold the post as step-mom is weird, but cool i guess~i hope i can influence her in a positive way that her real mom never did...swmapy and i think its working as last time we saw her she started to put her hair in plaits like mine... i dont know if thats good or bad!
2 comments:
we are going away too! this weekend coming down to our gypsy caravan and I cannot wait...
have a fun time in Pippin!
you know, it must be coming up a year since we had our first contact? I think it was Swampy who asked if he could copy a poem(forgive me, my memory is bad from that time) - i will never forget the kindness you showed me in my grief - love you lots! xo
Hi Lee,hope Swampy managed to get plenty of logs in!
Isn't it great when you can have Your music on and give it a blast,although I do like to have quiet times it really does you good to blow the cobwebs off and have a good session,YOU GO GIRL!!!!!
Not long now till your trip to Wimbledon and your mini cruise,its great to have something to look forward to!!!
Oh by the way I love the old enamel dishes great for rice puds done slowly in the oven Mmmmm!!!!
Hope you have a lovely weekend away with Swampy and Louise and Cody,don't worry you'll be fantastic,she is obviously comfortable being with you,enjoy yourselves!!!!
Love from Kathy and the girls
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