rise and root



The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~the soul that is me~

an odd one this and one i was thinking of the other day following the comment my mum made about spooky and i...

we had never grown up...

what she meant was that to her we were the same as we were 15-20 years ago, we had not followed the crowd and went down the marriage and children path but forged our own unique path, of which she is actually proud.
its a good thing she is not one of those mothers who would love to have grandchildren~she would be in for an extrodinarily long wait.

so i was thinking about me.

i realised that i had not really changed all that much over the past...oh lets say 25 years.

my music taste has not changed at all, in fact i would say my music tastes are so entrenched i cannot listen to even radio 2 anymore~tell a lie mike hardings folk night is the exception! the only stations i have programmed into my wind-up radio are classic fm and radio 4~that makes me sound like such a granny~grumble (to coin my friend dj hammy's phrase) so i guess the big change here is total musical intolerance...a harsh phrase but yes i am intolerant!

my personal ideologies have remained the same~when i was 13 i was wearing cnd and rock against racism pin badges on my school blazer, was going to anti-hunt protests here in the village and a few years later was attending cnd rallies with my college~today i still have my cnd badge, just upgraded to a jolly green and white one and support numerous causes and recently was asked by an old friend to help with anti-right wing leafleting here in the village~a hot bed of politics i can tell you!

on sight i think i have actually become much more eccentric~i have lost my long held concern on how people will view me by what i wear~have learnt that genuine friends look into the heart and soul and do not judge this human book by its cover. so yes i have actually become more...'individual' is how the lovely kit berry discribed me when i her met her last year. its too tiring to waste time wondering how others will judge you on your looks and i so wish i had realized that many moons ago!

my taste in reading material remains as eclectic as it ever has been~in my current pile of books being read are...titus groan~child of the northern spring~the west: an illustrated history~boudica: dreaming the hound~the human past~archaeology: an introduction
so quite an eclectic mix there.

i would say if anything is different it is my health~i have had m.e for coming up to 4 years now and it has caused me no end of hassle but i am kind of used to living with it now, i dont even miss driving and my dreadful memory and concentration just means that when i get my degree it will have been well earned! ...the diabetes i am having a harder struggle with...'what do you mean only one pizza slice?!' its what i call the dirt and worm diet and i am fiend for forgetting my medication. one eye has been damaged for which i have a prism in one of the lenses of my glasses and i have slight loss of sensation in one foot due to me being undiagnosed for a few years. still my great gran lost both legs through it so i count myself lucky...and i dont have pizza that often!

*so there you are a journey through me~ after visiting my blog for however long you have been you know me a bit better and i hope you enjoyed it*


Heart in the country said...

Very refreshing that you have not changed, many people are idealistic at school but then reach adulthood and are overtaken by convention.

Nothing wrong with eccentricity, my kid's read the poem - when I am old I shall wear purple - and tell me I've not waited :0) Hey ho it would be a boring world if we were all the same.

miss*R said...

bloody hell girl, look after that diabetes.. I tell you, I will email you daily to remind you to take your medication.. I come from a long line of diabetics.. thankfully it has not reared its ugly head in my body and I will not allow it to either!

I love you even more now, after this post.. you are so much like me, although I tend to still worry about what other people think about me.. trying hard not to and working on it though.. but I have changed alot over my lifetime - always a searcher but morphing into different aspects of a searching soul at times

I am so blessed that we are kindred souls and found each other in this lifetime and yes, oneday we will meet for sure (I am booked to have my tattoo on November 21!)

(and I love that you still have 'our' green man on your blog - Daisy would have loved you ox)

Anonymous said...

Well, that was thought provoking, it made me look at myself, and you know what I concluded? That you and I would get on famously. :-)

Anonymous said...

Oh and I just had to go and check out those green boots you keep talking about.

OMG I'm in love.

This Guy said...

I am just loving this post! :) People say that about me too, that I haven't changed in years, that I still havent grown up... Well, its like this. Why the hell do we wanna grow up, and get all old and bitter? Life is more exciting if you don't follow the "normal" road. You have certainly taken your own path through this life, and a VERY inspiring one at that too! :) Keep letting your light shine through, never change! :)

Ps. Wind up radio? That is JUST too COOL!

twiggypeasticks said...

Great to hear more about you, must admit I'm not really a follower either and it took me until being around 25 when I thought I don't give a stuff I'm doing it my way and have continued in that vein ever since, that is where true happiness lies. Keep up the good work!
Twiggy x

kathyann said...

Thanks Lee for your honesty,can't say that I am a follower either,if people don't like me for who I am then that's their problem.I admire you for your individuality.
You really must keep a close watch on your diabetes though Lee.
I'm so glad that the girls got me blogging or I would never have made so many wonderful warm friends like yourself,who I love visiting and enjoy the banter and the sharing lifes experiences.
Love from Kathy and the girls

enchantedartist said...

Yikes! Thanks for sharing all of this with us...but please,please be sure to take very good care of yourself...!

All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.

Chief Seattle

Johney Gaul~1915

Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France