rise and root



The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~blackberry & star ridden skies~

it seems like forever since i last wrote here, but it surprised me when i realised it was only a matter of days~i promise i will catch up with all you lovely bloggers very soon!

its been one of those weeks~it started great and then dissolved into one of upset and bad feelings~family problems of course, what else can produce such feelings?!

i needed some direction with this and so i worked with my tree oracle and blackberry came to hand~an odd one i thought and it took some work to understand it but finally realised that i was being told to take a step back, to step away from the situation in order to protect myself, that i had to let the situation as it was to develop and resolve itself without me.
it certainly makes sense for several times this past week i have said to myself and to others that i just don't have the spare energy to deal with the anger of others. i have too much to deal with myself~with my studies and up and coming hospital appointments~and i need to keep my energy for myself right now.

is that a selfish thing to be doing i wonder?

should i be more supportive?

the trouble is i feel that the situation i have been put in is as piggy in the middle~i hear things form both sides and try to support both sides but now don't want to hear anything for i don't know who or what to believe and i just feel its draining me.
i also don't think its going to be something that will go away without a fight, in fact i don't think it will ever go away, its just too deep.


i was up early this morning~it is my moontime and so by 4am i really needed a hot water bottle for my back and some pain killers and cody had the fidgets. he had been eating grass yesterday and so i thought it would be a good idea to let him into the back garden.
i went out with him and as is my way i turned up to the sky and was given a wonderful clear, star filled sky~a blanket of silver lights draped above my head...
it really did take my breath away and gave me the first real sense of peace this week.
right now it is still dark beyond my window~the sky is just turning a deep blue, but a blackbird is in fine tune in the tree outside.



Rose said...

Everyone has to have balance and sometimes we have to be selfish rather than selfless. If you are being tugged between two people like that, it is bound to send your energy all over the place. I always find time alone outside helps me too...

Mel said...

I concur....

As women we spend far too much time spreading ourselves thin in the effort to be everything to everyone all at once -- and when we don't, we label it *selfishness*. *sigh*

And moontime dictates rest and communion with your Self and the Earth....I finally allowed myself this and it makes a tremendous difference...not so much need for the pharmaceutical interventions...


JuliaB said...

Definately best NOT to be Piggy in the Middle and keep yourself unbiased and out of it. Taking sides (even inadvertently) always ends in tears! Good luck with it all. xx

laoi gaul~williams said...

thank you xoxoxoox

miss*R said...

selfish ??? no, no, no !!
put yourself first.. this kind of thing is happening to so many of us right now, not sure why. Are the planets in some kind of formation? who knows.. all I know is that we must put our own needs first.. otherwise we get burn out and are no good for anyone..
don't take other peoples anger or problems on.. I know how hard it is to step back. Pack that situation that is not yours, up into a big pink box, tie it with a bow and send it on with love - thankyou but no thankyou. do what you are doing: being with nature, noticing the sky, the birds - take their energies xo and protect yourself xo

enchantedartist said...

I am going to be an echo here...No, no it is not selfish to conserve your strength and care for yourself. I truly understand how this is a difficult thing to do, but boundaries can be a such a healthy thing.

Ahhhh...family situations are such tricky things, aren't they? :-)

All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.

Chief Seattle

Johney Gaul~1915

Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France