i am becoming increasingly aware of my lack of blogging of late~i feel i have been so bogged down with everything right now.
anything i do during the day that does not concern my studies have become a luxury
...i cannot remember the last time i picked up a book that did not concern ancient greece or the late roman republic and have a nice read.
...or the last time i woke up and did not have to think about getting some reading done, notes written, essay drafted
right now i am sitting here with part of my mind thinking over the conclusion to my essay and have i completed my bibliography ready to submit it by midday?
oh my word
its as if a large part of me has gone into hibernation, for no other reason than it is of no use right now~i have nothing else but my studies engulfing me
for this part of my degree i have one final essay and an exam in june...but already i am thinking of next years course~what do i choose to do?
i have it in my head to choose one that starts next february or shall i go completely wild and have a year off and resume next october?
if i took off a year would i get bored?
what would i do with myself?
well for a start there is the quilt i keep promising myself to make
the garden to tend
books to read
paintings i want to create
places i want to visit
and of course there is little Sgurr~who is finally coming home with us next wednesday, two months to the day we had to let our beautiful cody travel to the summerlands.
after we heard the news of the date late last night i went out into the garden, as i do every night, as i did every night with cody, for one last look at the sky and a sniff of the air...sure that cody still joins me in this ritual.
as i stepped out it was freezing cold and the sky as clear as it possibly could be and i caught the briefest flash of a shooting star in the west.
i found it comforting~it felt that it was the final sign i needed that this new path we are following with a new little life, is the right path.
6 comments:
That is a lovely signal from Cody Keep on trucking with the studying I remember it well
Twiggy x
Take a year off.
SlinkyX
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Hi Lovely
I got here but like you time just dont allow it and I never remember my password anyway lol
xx
Wow, seems like you are really busy with your studies. Hope it is fun and not stressing! I'd say continue, but be enot to put too much into the year. I am so happy for you that you know that you are ready for the pup. Last week I found myself thinking of Josy and for the first time it felt ok to me that she is gone instead of hurting so much (but it was the only time so far). Yesterday it was 8 months ago that we had to let her go…
Do you know you will find plenty to do with a year off! I never thought that I would be happy to be at home but I cannot tell you how wonderful it is!!Our lives have never been better,I dont know what the future holds but for now 'Without time I am Free'...
Warm Wishes,
Cally x
definately the right path!!!!!
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