rise and root

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The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

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"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~fate?~

belated solstice blessing to you all
here we had a day and night of grey sky and rain so my planned small and peaceful sit by my little fire did not take place.
we have had rain, high winds, some sunshine~really the most bizarre weather for what should be flaming june.
although to be fair when the clouds do clear it is very hot.

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its been a funny week here in the forest~more so because we should not really be here at all.

we have had long term plans to be in yorkshire this week~firstly visiting my friend lina (for the very first time!) who lives in east yorkshire and then crossing to west yorkshire for our friends 50th birthday party tonight.
well last week swampy went into hospital to have facet joint injections into his spine in an attempt to give him some pain relief~however he has been in more pain than ever and could not manage the long drive up or sleeping in the camper
(i really hope it is just taking its time in working as the poor thing is very grumpy with the pain too)

well i was awake from about 3am this morning as my fibro was giving me painful 'restless' legs so i put my little headphones on to listen to the radio~i must have nodded off for i suddenly woke up to hear a reporter talking about todmorden and hebden bridge being flooded...we were to have been camping in hebden bridge from last wednesday and the party is in todmorden tonight.
needless to say i had to get up and put the news on.

i keep thinking what would have happened if we were camped up as mismi lives in his cage out in our awning when camping.

i haven't yet heard from our friends yet but hoping they are safe.

i have been so upset about not going up to see all my friends, to the point i had to stop thinking about it for fear of bursting into tears but now i think in a roundabout way something was forcing us to stay home.

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i became really upset (yes about something else...its been one of those weeks!) in the week as our new neighbours pulled up every single plant in their front and back garden...
everything.
they had a large machine come in to rip up plants and bushes by the stumps.
for most of the day, on and off the machine was going so loud we could not have our doors or windows open and when we went to hang out washing we could not hear each other talk.
we were both also worried that the six foot wood panel fence that luckily shields us from them was going to fall down as the machine was so close.
i think it would have been neighbourly to maybe pop a note in our door to say there was going to be so much noise for much of the day.
the beautiful flower bed that ran down the side of the house and along the front is now just bare earth, and from what we have seen through their open back gate on our way out, so is the back...
just churned up earth.
the worse thing is a few days earlier i heard baby birds in one of their bushes~i feel heartbroken.
everyone here in our little cul-de-sac is just devastated.

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i had to go back to the doctors as well
this flipping virus is still with me
i think the two courses of antibiotics helped a little but the cough is still here as bad a s ever so now i have two nasal sprays~one to use three times daily for a week, one to use twice daily for i don't know how long and next week i have to go and have a chest x ray
(here in England right now there is an advertising campaign about long term persistent coughing and lung cancer)
i have to admit i have not been feeling my best this week (another sign we should not have gone away?)...well i never feel good, but i feel 'okay' in my own way so to feel bad i know i must be bad...does that make sense?!
i have three weeks for it to clear if not my doctor wants me to go back.

i have been so very tired and going to bed between 7-8pm either with my book or to listen to the radio.

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i am trying to do very little this weekend as i am going to london with my sister next week~we have tickets for the centre court at wimbledon on tuesday~so i really need to save my 'spoons'...if we had gone to yorkshire we were coming home on sunday ready for me to go off.

i do feel bad about about going off and leaving swampy as he is really struggling~he doesn't really let on much about it but i can always tell how he is and i try to do more around the house so he does not do it himself.
the trouble is we live in a catch-22 situation~we both have problems to deal with and each try to do more so the other does not have to!

i keep reassuring myself i will be only gone for one whole day and we have food etc in plus my mum is only five minutes away if need be.

anyway i best get myself sorted as we are going to my mums for the afternoon

have a good day all and if any of your reading this are in the flooded areas be safe

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8 comments:

jill said...

Your holiday up here in yorkshire just was not ment to be Laoi.My hubby had the same injections as Swampy and the same problems after wards and Im sorry to say no improvement what so ever,he is now under another surgen so we are keeping fingers crossed that he may come up with something differant,hes had 2 ops on his back and doesnt really want to have another,hope the injections work for Swampy.I am so upset for you with the neighbours they are horrible (sorry maybe nice people really)for ripping the garden up and causing so much noise they could of let you know, you could of had some of the plants to take care of, such distruction is unnessasery.Hope you will be feeling well or better than you do now anyway soon then you can get to London. Sending you lots of healing love to you both.Love Jill xx

Miss Robyn said...

sometimes, you just have to trust the Universe

that cold you have is hard to shake, we all have it here too. wish I had an answer how to heal it, but I don't. i just try anything that relieves me at the time.
hope you both feel better soon. much love xoxo

Pixie said...

Goodness everything sounds really Pants (capital P used for this i think),, its horribly when things are all so crappy, and i have to say what utterly sh*tty neighbours you have, i feel sorry for you for having such complete numpties living next door to you,, i hope karma intervenes after what they did to those little baby birds, what b*st*rds.

Anyway,, hope things improve for you, stay dry and enjoy your wimbledon, at least mums not too far off if swampy needs anything.
Pixie x

Sandies' Patch said...

Oh SD! I wish all to be well with you and yours after such a sh**ty week! I'm sure the weather odes not help many people, making us cold and miserable.
Sending god wishes and healing vibes your way.

Have a better week ahead!

Hugs,

Sandie xx

Callies Cottage said...

Fate?Absolutley!Thank goodness you are both safe and wishing you both better health and some sunny days ahead..
Bright Blessings!
Callie x

Hawthorn said...

Sorry to hear of your ills. Swampy has my sympathy - I suffer from back problems and it's no fun. As others have said, things happen for a reason.

Keep well.

Rebecca said...

I hope you are both feeling better now, I still have my cough and my chest x-ray came back clear, thats good news I guess. So sad about your neighbours garden, take care x

Linda said...

I am so sorry you are still dealing with that virus...It can really ruin your quality of life...and your poor Swampy I hope he starts to feel better soon...I would day it was fate that you were not in that flooded area...I am not sure why people need to destroy established gardens...it is kind of sad especially if there were baby birds there....very sad...
Feel better soon Laoi to both you & Swampy

(((HUGS)))) XO

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