that is how things are with me at the moment
its all a bit this and that.
i am having what i can only assume is a fibro flare up, one that is lasting some weeks~my energy is drained and what little i do have is sapped very quickly as the first hours of my day pass.
i have been mostly working on my family tree, crochet and reading.
at samhain i pulled the threads together enough to have a fire in the garden and sat for an hour burning incense, feeling the wood smoke soak into my clothing and ponder the new year ahead.
its this time of the year that i feel drawn into two directions~there is my own direction, the world where i follow the wheel of the year, where magic abounds
then there is the 'real' world, the world of muggles!
i am feeling frustrated that although the village i live in is so beautiful, sitting where it is in the heart of the new forest...
dew drop cobwebs...
sharing the space with a few locals...
fungi...
dew drop cobwebs...
sharing the space with a few locals...
fungi...
...it is a very conservative place to live, increasingly full of wealthy conservative people, a place where many people i grew up with cannot afford to buy a home or even rent.
there are days where i feel isolated, very isolated, and visiting some of the blogs i follow only serves to increase these feelings.
i spend my time dreaming of my own mythical 'Amalgam' the way Bill Bryson did in his travels documented in The Lost Continent~Travels in Small Town America
my Amalgam is a mix of different areas of Glastonbury, Seattle, San Francisco, Banff and Sacremento,..places i have been to and fell in love with the bohemian aspects of the places. the small, funky independent book stores, cafes, clothes shops, markets...and people, friends.
there are days where i feel isolated, very isolated, and visiting some of the blogs i follow only serves to increase these feelings.
i spend my time dreaming of my own mythical 'Amalgam' the way Bill Bryson did in his travels documented in The Lost Continent~Travels in Small Town America
my Amalgam is a mix of different areas of Glastonbury, Seattle, San Francisco, Banff and Sacremento,..places i have been to and fell in love with the bohemian aspects of the places. the small, funky independent book stores, cafes, clothes shops, markets...and people, friends.
1 comment:
Selling my cottage this year and moving into a "complex" has really done a number on me. I still want my acres in the mountains surrounded by nature and not humans, but due to my health issues, it just isn't possible. I am going to look into that Amalgam. It sounds very interesting.
Hang in there.
blessings
~*~
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