today the sun has been shining and the sky has been blue here in this ancient forest
swampy has done some tidying in the sacred garden and we have had the back door open letting through a stream of cool, fresh air.
i have followed swampy around with my shawl wrapped around me and he has even swept out my nook and so i will be having a little fire later and burn some of now dry evergreens from yule as a natural incense
not only am i giving thanks to the beauty of the day but also for knowing you wonderful people...some i know and meet with, some i know only through my blog...
i am giving thanks for your advice and support and encouragement over my last few posts
its a hard thing to do, giving up, for however long, something that has been such a big part of my life for so many years.
yes i had decided but, as K put it, i was still holding on...and you all said things which helped me organise my thoughts
after more thinking yesterday i realised that why put myself through something that no longer gives me joy?
that had become something that was binding me in so many ways
i have made my final decision and just need to let the OU know.
if, in a few years time, i want to go back to it i will find a way with regards the funding.
but now...
oh the bliss of not having reading/essay deadlines facing me.
i can set my own timetable and its a timetable doing all the crafting things i love
i can sit in my nook with a book or my crochet and not feel guilty
i don't have to worry that the three day migraine is making me behind with reading
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so now it is time for me to gather my crafting supplies and ponder my new steps
it feels like the start of a whole new life...
5 comments:
Glad you feel so good about your decision and free to start your new journey! Go ahead. This is the start to a good year!
Good luck for this part of your path through life. Your life. Live it and enjoy it!
Hugs,
Tina
I took a year out when I did my degree. I started my third year and just didn't feel like it. It was such a relief deciding that, even though nobody could understand why. As it turned out two days later I was in A&E and being admitted for a minor op...
That feeling of relief is all you need to tell you that you did the right thing!
and I did go back and finish.... If it is right for you then you will too...
How lovely to feel like that - the sense of freedom must be wonderful. Long may it continue!
Enjoy your new path Laoi lifes to short to worry about things you are not enjoying Love Jill xx
good for you!! xo
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