~earth goddess~

 

well i set out to post this a few days ago but became tied up with all the usual things of 'normal' life~my mum popped in to have swampy look at her telephone bill (she was paying for things she did not need) and order her some strimmer wire, we popped out to a large camping superstore where we became over excited and made a list of some new things we quite fancy, shopping was yesterday and we had to take little Inca to the vets for a jill jab to bring her out of season.

 

today i have been catching up with e-mail and looking at a possible campsite for next years Stonewylde camp...north wales is looking interesting.

 

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so...

earth goddess...

 

this has been coming up a lot in my books, dreams and oracle card readings just lately...

i have been writing it all up in my 'soul journey' journal and ended up having to do a flow-chart kind of thing to try to make sense of it all.

 

as i cannot do a flow chart here i shall just try to write up the big things and how they link...

 

firstly...re-birth/new beginnings~snake/dragon/snake spirit/cernunnos*green man/earth goddess/brighid

 

then...re-birth/new beginning's~primrose~flower of the bard~adder stone~regeneration of self

 

i also had a dream about being in a goddess circle with a small group of other women, with one of them revealing herself as a good friend and soul sister.

 

i am thinking that a more in depth card reading is in order to see if i can make any more sense of this.

 

what is your relationship with the goddess?

 

 



~my power word

this feels good...it feels right to be back here and blogging...i shall just ignore the whole google world domination thing and wend on my own sweet merry way.

 

well, back 'over there' i mentioned boho moms post about the power word for this year and i said back then that i would blog about mine..

 

i have been thinking it over and my power word for this year is

 

yoga

 

it may seem funny to ascribe this as a power word but to me yoga means a whole lot more...the definition in the free online dictionary tells us...

 

yoga [ˈjəʊgə]

n (often capital)

1. (Philosophy) (Non-Christian Religions / Hinduism) a Hindu system of philosophy aiming at the mystical union of the self with the Supreme Being in a state of complete awareness and tranquillity through certain physical and mental exercises

2. (Philosophy) any method by which such awareness and tranquillity are attained, esp a course of related exercises and postures designed to promote physical and spiritual well being

 

 

see where i am coming from here?

its not just about the physical exercise but it is the head-space that yoga puts me in that is important and so 'yoga' as my power word encompasses so much more.

 

once again i have let my yoga practise lapse...its easy to do when i am feeling physically very low, when my whole body is totally exhausted and everything hurts nothing in this world can make me do anything other than just 'be' and surf through the pain and exhaustion until i reach the other side.

when i reach the other side the pain and exhaustion is still with me, it never goes away, but it eases to the point i can focus on other things, the things that bring me joy and yoga is one of them.

 

even if the limits of my system only allows me to do a few yoga positions on some days that is enough for the good it does for me mentally.

 

and its the mental aspect that is a big part of it being my power word...

 

awareness

tranquillity

spiritual well being

 

i have had all of these in dribs and drabs but i so want to have them all with me at the same time...i want to feel and be so elated that i carry it with me all of the time...and that maybe this feeling will surround me in a aura that its affects those i come into contact with.

 

since the winter solstice and my experience at stonehenge and my initiation, mentally i have been buzzing...on such a high. in fact my mind is such that i have been finding it difficult to put things down into words or images.

even now, writing this there is so much i want to write but it is being oh so elusive...that 'tip of the tongue' thing...all i am getting are images...

 

i wish i could put these images into words...

~stonehenge~

 

 

i have had to take an extended break from my laptop as my bout of bruxus continued through most of last week, its only the last few days that i have really been back to 'normal' and felt able to fire up the laptop again.

 

i am so glad it has passed because sunday was the

 

gorsedd of cor gawr midwinter gathering at stonehenge

 

the gorsedd has been meeting at stonehenge since the 1990's for rituals the dawn on midsummer's...

 day and again on the sunday before the winter solstice at around sunset...

 

 

a group of us met up in the main car park and waited until the site was closed to the public and then following the sound of a drum we all made our way onto the site where we waited just outside the huge outer circle of saren stones before walking in one by one, being smudged as we stood under the trilithon.

 we all then walked around the huge inner stone gates and ring of bluestones where we found a place to stand.

swampy and i chose to stand by the two remaining bluestones that are just inside from the sarsens we walked in through, directly opposite the alter stone...i found this picture of the exact stone on wikipedia...

 

 

the space we walked through is the central one here and i spent the entire ritual connected to the rounder of the two bluestones here.

the stone in the distance on the right is the heel stone (research suggests there were two of them) which shows the point of the mid-summer sunrise.

 

 

i love this photo as it shows the waning moon slightly to the left of where i was standing with 'my' bluestone.

 

this was a very special time for, not only was it my first trip to the stones in 28 years-during which time the opportunity to get up close and personal with the stones became all but impossible but un-beknown to me at one point there was the opportunity to choose to be initiated as a bard of the gorsedd of cor gawr.

when it was announced about an hour into the ritual that initiation into the gorsedd was going to happen i thought it might have been for people who had been previously selected to undertake initiation but i was soon aware it was for anyone there.

when those who wished it were invited to form a ring around the great bush of mistletoe hanging from a tripod in the centre of the circle it was as if  something took over my feet, in fact i don't even really remember the feeling of physically 'walking' up to the mistletoe...its as if my body was just 'transported' and i joined the group of about 20 people who all then turned to face outwards and joined hands and recited three times the dedication....
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

*there are various translation options for cor gawr, one being 'giants dance' which i think is most perfect*