rise and root

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~*~*~*~



The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

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"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~deep breath & plunge~

 
first things first
 
wild magnolia
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thank you :)
 
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i am smiling today because i woke up with this bout of bruxus almost gone...its such a lovely feeling to have...even though i have so many painkillers still in my bloodstream...the bonus being i can type this post without as much pain in my hands!
 
i am also feeling all excited as i have just registered for jani francks
 
 
eCourse
 
this leads me nicely into what i have been trying to write for days now, to explain this
buzz
i have been feeling.
 
 
to be honest i am not sure where it came from, its something that has been brewing for a couple of weeks.
 
i have been thinking how i need to organise my life in some way.
not in a horrid 'office' kind of structure but in a more organic way that means i can fit in all the things i want to do around the constraints of my 'ailments'.
 
i also want my life to have more meaning~for so long i have let said 'ailments' rule my life, i have drifted with small bursts of trying to take my life back and it has never lasted. 
but now i have decided i need to
reclaim 'me'
and what i do while accepting i have long term chronic conditions that wont just go away with pain killers or doing nothing.
so i am going to do but more mindfully.
 
i am also going to set myself goals...my main goal is to eventually become my own source of income which would give me all kinds of freedom.
i know it will be hard going but seeing how many other folk gain so much joy from it despite hardships i feel it would be more worthwhile.
i don't particularly want millions or a mansion or fancy clothes (as if!) i just want enough to help with the bills etc and to buy more crafting materials to continue making my jewellery,bundles etc.
 
i think i am too much like my dad...
he, as most of you know, is an artist and model maker, and has always had this streak of the independent, a 'wunderlust' (my word that descibes a restlessness within the soul) within him that kept him restless and finally became such that he had to step away from the mainstream 9-5 to follow his dream.
 
that is me, it really is.
 
even if i had the health to do so, i could never return to the 9-5
i could never conform to an organisation that would insist that i could not be me, to remove my nose ring, hide my tattoo's, dress in a conservative way...
 
i am getting the jitters just thinking about it.
 
 
so my head is finally in a good place...
 
my head has returned to accepting that what i put into my body reflects what is on the outside resulting in a large amount of veggies bought for eating and juicing
 
to resume my yoga...even if i only do  a ten minute session a day as i have read it is very good for fibro even during a flare up.
 
to set time aside for 'most things' each day~to spend time 'working' at the wylde apothecary
 
to stop drifting in my spiritual journey
 
to enjoy my life and stop stressing about the things i cannot change but go with the flow~to trust in the universe that things will fall into place.
 
today is the first day...
 
 
so
 
deep breath
 
and
 
plunge
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 
 


3 comments:

mel said...

brilliant, brilliant, brilliant!!

i'm so jazzed for you....and wish you all the magic of the infinite to guide and assist you on your moste excellente adventure!

much love...xoxo

laoi gaul~williams said...

thank you mel :) i am just on such a high right now, feeling really positive and just have this 'feeling' that it will all be good...i even have the urge to do a painting. i have had an image in my head, funnily since my mind has been buzzing!,that i need to create. thought i might go mad and buy a canvas for it ;) *whoot*!

jill said...

I am so pleased you are feeling better Laoi thats brilliant news.Hope that all you have planned for your future goes well and just the way you want it to,good luck on your journey.Love Jill xx

All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.



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Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France