i want to say a big thank you to those who commented on my last post.
i came here today to apologise for writing such a 'down' post.
but then i thought no, that's okay, its fine to write down what i am feeling if it reaches out to people and makes them feel not so alone in their situation.
i am getting there, getting there in that i am not going to let this get the better of me.
i had a wobble yesterday, a fit of frustration.
i thought i would help swampy out in the garden a bit, the sun was shining and it was warm, it felt nice.
but it seemed everything i did or suggested was 'wrong'~i tried twice, maybe three times and then gave up, not having the guts to explain why i came indoors and slumped on the sofa yet again.
it was a really lovely day yesterday and if it were not for the black dog i would have really enjoyed it.
i think maybe this fibro flare up is getting me down too.
but enough of that.
i have started jani francks
yesterday (well really today as i was not wanting to be online yesterday) and i am already loving it.
i went mad and bought a moleskine sketchbook for it, which is not so bad as my present moleskine notebook has a paltry two pages left after my last couple of entries have been rather extensive.
there is something special about a really nice journal...
i am excited as i have been invited and applied for tickets for swampy and i to join the gorsedd of cor gawr at Stonehenge again for the alban hefin/midsummer gorsedd at stonehenge.
remembering the midwinter ritual i just know this one will be special...but getting swampy out of bed and at stonehenge for dawn?
well that will be interesting!
i have moved myself from the sofa into my room and plan on putting some shamanic drumming on and working with some preseli bluestone for the wylde apothecary.
apart from the 'frippery' i have made nothing for days as i have not wanted to work my negativity into my creations, which i think is fair enough.
but today i think its time...its time to override the black dog as much as i can so i shall play my shamanic drumming, burn some Tibetan healing incense and see what the song of the stones tell me to do...