rise and root



The Flame Haired Solstice Dreamer

Cold winter brings the Everfrost and jewels every tree
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
A flame~haired dreamer wanders there and shelters from the wind
And spins her dreams around the trees to break the ties that bind
She takes her thread and spins anew and how the Greenwood smiles
As she spins a spell for freedom and for her spirit Wylde

The dreamer finds an ancient oak and shelters in his lee
In a forest new as birth and old as old can be
Tis summer now and birdsong weaves its magick through her spells
And humming bees drum drowsily in the foxglove's bells
The dreamer sits beneath the oak with yarn upon her knee
And spins and knits and weaves her dreams and sets her spirit free

"When birds fall from the sky and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people...shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. they will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow"

Hopi Prophecy

~re-treading the path~

finding a path is never easy, keeping to a path is never easy and its easy to become distracted.
like anything in this world finding and remaining on a sacred path is one that constantly needs work, these things take time, take dedication and do not come easy.

anything can interfere with your path, even the smallest of thing, problems with family, a busy life, work, illness...anything.

but here's the thing...your path will never entirely desert you.
you might drift from the path but your path will never desert you.

it will sit snug deep within you like a fox cosy in it its den while your life gently meanders on its way, sitting there all cosy just waiting for you to remember it and to slowly find your way back.

this has been my life for a year now, the gentle meandering from my path. this has happened before but never for this long and never in such a complete way. a lot of this has been to do with my depression, the black dog drags you away from everything that is special in your life, isolates you from it, makes you think that nothing is important anymore. and that's how it was for months, I felt nothing, I had lost all connection, I felt nothing...absolutely nothing. the times of sacred celebrations passed me by without any sense of recognition or feeling. my altar space just sat there gathering dust and my shaman drum hung on it place above my altar un-touched.

as I wrote in my last post the magic of the moongazy gathering helped me find my way back onto my path and since then I have bene making those tentative first steps in re-treading my spiritual path, finding myself back on my soul journey.

the most important part was celebrating the summer solstice in my little wild, sacred garden, for once I was not too unwell or too pulled down by the 'don't care' vibe of depression to go and light a fire in my little cauldron...

I burned some of my star child 'moon' incense to celebrate the joining of the full moon on the summer solstice...

and drummed...

until the full moon slowly rose over the edge of the hollow we live in...

and I started to read my cards again. yesterday I did a four card reading of my shaman oracle cards...

 I feel better, the black dog and the anxiety is still there, but being back on my path and having a sense of connection makes me feel better, I feel almost whole once again.


Dryade said...

Thanke you for you're words. They touched my heart and my soul.
I found your blog via instagram, read just this post and it was wonderful!! Thank you!
I left my parth, too. With a lot of different reasons.
But a few weekes ago, I felt a soft call and start to reclaim my way, to come back home to myself, after a long time.
This midsummer night I made a tiny ritual, too. The first after a long time....
Send you love, Dryade

Mazrah said...

Hello lovely soul, i'm a big lover of your blog. It always makes me feel warm. It is a shame to hear that the black dog and anxiety have been affecting you like this - I suffer from their presence too, new to me in the past six months, and although it is really crap it is kind of reassuring to hear about others rising up to refollow their paths despite being house to them. It is such a valuable thing, i think, to be able to disassociate yourself from them - safe in the knowledge that your Self and your Path will always be there to coax back and ease into, even though these presences make a habit of showing up to put you off! Stay strong sister xxxx

Jopan ofmanypets said...

I'm pleased that you're feeling better, I truly am as I suffer with depression and anxiety too, so I know how it feels. I hope that things continue to improve for you and that you find complete happiness. Just as I hope that my life will soon start to bring me happiness as well.

laoi gaul~williams said...

thank you so much for your comments here, I was beginning to think no-one read it anymore thinking I had completely stopped blogging!

All things share the same breath~the beast, the tree, the man, the air shares its spirit with all the life it supports.

Chief Seattle

Johney Gaul~1915

Johney Gaul~1915
1890-17 september 1918~France